Dreams of We.
Inspired by Love.
Love is and can be ….. complicated. Yet beautiful. And freeing. Hard. Imperfect. But worth it. So very worth it. No matter the outcome. Part of being a creative is letting life influence art and then sharing that art no matter how personal. A 5 part story. It ends in love.
Waiting to Exhale
I didn't realize that I was holding my breath for so long
until I finally exhaled.
I couldn't breathe
and I never really wanted to come to terms with why.
I used to get knots in my stomach until I heard the tone of his voice
I didn't realize that things should have been so much better
That I deserved so much better
That I got comfortable with the idea that things would eventually get better .. eventually
Who allowed me to tolerate this?
I look at myself and feel so damn ashamed.
I saw what he could've been and ignored what he was
I lived in denial, so consumed with just hope
Hope that he'd become the man that I knew he could ...
Or would ... eventually become.
He was my bestfriend. He was my bestfriend.
But then you came along ...
And I exhaled.
I thought I knew what I now know for sure
There's this feeling in my chest, pure peace
Looking back, I think to myself ...
Why did I think this was normal?
I just ...
I didn't realize that I was holding my breath for so long
Until I finally exhaled.
Valentine’s Day
To be loved by you...
It's a different kind of love
The kind of love that I deserve
The kind of love that makes me sure
So sure
That I've been waiting for you
They say Valentine's for fools
But they don't know what it’s like to be loved by you
It's the kind of love that makes you believe in things
You make me weak in the knees
Boy, sometimes I forget how to breathe
This shit ... is everything
Slow dancing in a room
Nobody else, just me and you
Red roses set the mood
I'm tellin you ... got me thinkin of wedding rings
When you whisper in my ear
It's enough to last years
I sit back in the memory
Grateful to know love
Grateful to know us
I've been waiting for you.
Ghost Tales
It meant nothing
Barely even enough to tell
But we don't keep secrets
And in my drunken stupor, it just didn't sit well
He thought he was cocky
I knew I was better
I swear it was nothing more ... ever
Who was he?
Why him?
You wonder if you ever met em ...
Its irrelevant
He was irreverent
I know you deserved better
But who is he? ... you want to know
It keeps you up at night, tossin and turnin
I'm tellin you, don't sweat it
Just please don't go.
I wish you believed in the words "I'm sorry"
I think I know this story
Just please don't leave, I said please.
He's a ghost, you say
But you'll ghost this thing
I'm asking you .... please.
He never mattered
Wish I could take it back faster
But ... I can't.
So we stare at each other
Me looking you in the eyes,
Finding the words to say
It meant nothing ... he meant nothing.
But we don't keep secrets.
So it just didn't sit well.
Loving/Losing You
Loving you, is easy cus you’re beautiful
But if I lose you, there’s nothing left to see
Breaks my heart to see you hurting
Knowing I can't save you from the burden
Funny how temptation creeps back in
But with you around, there's really no need or want for sin
Grateful to have experienced you
But I want my kids to have that experience too
No we're not picture perfect, this I know
But even with the shit I don't like, my love still grows
Tell me partner, what's my final grade?
Learning you like a class, studying your every move
God brought you into my life, like "here's a man"
I really gotta say, you weren't part of the plan
Your mother's best work, she put her foot in you
Just beautiful to me, makes me so emotional
It's not over til it's over, that's what you said to me
Made my heart skip a beat like we’re on Sesame Street
Just call me Frankie, and kiss me
Won't take much to make me blush...
I’ve heard, grief is the final act of love...
If I lost you, there’s no forgetting what was.
Reset
It's been months, you're not really here
I ask ... do you still love me?
I choke on the words
It's my fault and it hurts
You say "it's hard not to ..."
Is it over? Are we done?
My heart feels like they turned off the sun
Please ... just don't say yes.
I ask ... what do you want?
Do you want this work?
All you have to say is ... yes.
Do you miss me? Do you care?
Tell me the feelings are still there.
Please ... just say yes.
Hold me down, it's okay to drown
Just make sure that we're bound... to work out
Can we try something?
Let's try ... a reset.
I don't wanna give this up
This is a different kind of love
Work til we get back to what we were
Feeling like …. we just met.
So, I ask...
Do you still love me?
Do you still care?
Holding my breath and waiting for air
All you gotta do is ... say yes.
