Inspired by Love.

Love is and can be ….. complicated. Yet beautiful. And freeing. Hard. Imperfect. But worth it. So very worth it. No matter the outcome. Part of being a creative is letting life influence art and then sharing that art no matter how personal. A 5 part story. It ends in love.

Waiting to Exhale

I didn't realize that I was holding my breath for so long

until I finally exhaled.

I couldn't breathe

and I never really wanted to come to terms with why.

I used to get knots in my stomach until I heard the tone of his voice

I didn't realize that things should have been so much better

That I deserved so much better

That I got comfortable with the idea that things would eventually get better .. eventually

Who allowed me to tolerate this?

I look at myself and feel so damn ashamed.

I saw what he could've been and ignored what he was

I lived in denial, so consumed with just hope

Hope that he'd become the man that I knew he could ... 

Or would ... eventually become.

He was my bestfriend. He was my bestfriend.

But then you came along ...

And I exhaled. 

I thought I knew what I now know for sure

There's this feeling in my chest, pure peace 

Looking back, I think to myself ...

Why did I think this was normal?

I just ...

I didn't realize that I was holding my breath for so long

Until I finally exhaled. 

Valentine’s Day

To be loved by you...

It's a different kind of love 

The kind of love that I deserve

The kind of love that makes me sure

So sure

That I've been waiting for you

 

They say Valentine's for fools

But they don't know what it’s like to be loved by you

It's the kind of love that makes you believe in things

 

You make me weak in the knees

Boy, sometimes I forget how to breathe

This shit ... is everything

 

Slow dancing in a room

Nobody else, just me and you 

Red roses set the mood

I'm tellin you ... got me thinkin of wedding rings

When you whisper in my ear

It's enough to last years

I sit back in the memory

 

Grateful to know love

Grateful to know us

I've been waiting for you. 

Ghost Tales

It meant nothing

Barely even enough to tell 

But we don't keep secrets

And in my drunken stupor, it just didn't sit well

He thought he was cocky

I knew I was better

I swear it was nothing more ... ever

Who was he?

Why him?

You wonder if you ever met em ...

Its irrelevant

He was irreverent 

I know you deserved better

But who is he? ... you want to know

It keeps you up at night, tossin and turnin

I'm tellin you, don't sweat it

Just please don't go. 

I wish you believed in the words "I'm sorry"

I think I know this story

Just please don't leave, I said please. 

He's a ghost, you say

But you'll ghost this thing

I'm asking you .... please.

He never mattered

Wish I could take it back faster

But ... I can't.

So we stare at each other

Me looking you in the eyes, 

Finding the words to say

It meant nothing ... he meant nothing.

But we don't keep secrets.

So it just didn't sit well. 

Loving/Losing You

Loving you, is easy cus you’re beautiful

But if I lose you, there’s nothing left to see

 

Breaks my heart to see you hurting

Knowing I can't save you from the burden

 

Funny how temptation creeps back in

But with you around, there's really no need or want for sin

 

Grateful to have experienced you

But I want my kids to have that experience too

 

No we're not picture perfect, this I know

But even with the shit I don't like, my love still grows

 

Tell me partner, what's my final grade?

Learning you like a class, studying your every move

 

God brought you into my life, like "here's a man"

I really gotta say, you weren't part of the plan

 

Your mother's best work, she put her foot in you

Just beautiful to me, makes me so emotional

 

It's not over til it's over, that's what you said to me

Made my heart skip a beat like we’re on Sesame Street

 

Just call me Frankie, and kiss me

Won't take much to make me blush... 

 

I’ve heard, grief is the final act of love...

If I lost you, there’s no forgetting what was. 

Reset

It's been months, you're not really here

I ask ... do you still love me?

 

I choke on the words

It's my fault and it hurts

You say "it's hard not to ..."

 

Is it over? Are we done?

My heart feels like they turned off the sun

Please ... just don't say yes. 

 

I ask ... what do you want?

Do you want this work? 

All you have to say is ... yes.

 

Do you miss me? Do you care?

Tell me the feelings are still there.

Please ... just say yes. 

 

Hold me down, it's okay to drown

Just make sure that we're bound... to work out

Can we try something?

Let's try ... a reset.

 

I don't wanna give this up

This is a different kind of love

Work til we get back to what we were

Feeling like …. we just met. 

 

So, I ask...

Do you still love me?

Do you still care?

Holding my breath and waiting for air

All you gotta do is ... say yes.