Season 23, Episode 1

Bee’s  Turning 23! …. So what does that mean?

I’m not exactly sure, but keepin it 100? … I’m excited to find out. I hear nobody likes you when you’re 23 but it’s your Jordan year, so how can you not be anything but GREAT?

As I sit here and type this, I find myself so amused, in awe, and somewhat grateful for all that I’ve endured this last year of my life. Talk about a rough one! If I ever thought that I lived in a TV show, this year was more along the lines of Greys Anatomy - there were tears, lost love and friendships, drama and sex, and quite frankly, this season was just an overall - HOT. MESS. … I don’t even like Taylor Swift, but let me tell you that I believed her dumbass when she made 22 look like it was going to be the time of my life. It was faaaar from it.

 Phew chile … glad that’s over.

I should’ve caught the hint with the way that twenty-two started, that it was literally going to be like the worst year I’ve ever had … mentally and emotionally. I hit some really rough points in 22 that took me to some pretty dark places, but through the ashes – I rose. And all this to say, when I fix my fingers to type on my keyboard and try to preach to you all about how important self-love and mental health is …. Trust me, I say it from experience and I’m just trying to be that voice when you need it.

I have, had the misfortune of forgetting who I am because I got so wrapped up in the cards that life was handing me and I think that although 22 was rough, it was a great reminder and wake up call to remember BEE. Through my 22nd struggle, came some really great life lessons and moments of clarity. I can without a doubt say that I have this confidence and sense of self that I’ve literally never had before in my life, and nobody gave it to me; therefore nobody can take it away. Self-taught, through months of struggle, I remembered who I really was and what that even means.

I am all three of Destiny’s Children (mostly Beyoncé though), I’m the embodiment of the best qualities in both of my parents, I’m a first generation college-graduate, I’m a working woman, I’m the creator and content editor of DreamofBee – something I created on my own, and, you can’t tell me nothing. With the spirit of Tracee Ellis Ross in this 23rd season of my life, I did not come to play with ya’ll or myself. Obviously, I’m going to continue making mistakes and learning from them is all a part of the game, but there’s something very different about the Bee that’s going into 23, I’m not sure that some of you have actually met her .. but I encourage you to, she’s quite dope.

“Sometimes in order to grow, you have to fall down – get knocked on your ass, and get right back up”.  22 kicked my ass, and I let it … but now, at 23, I’m coming to take what’s mine. I hope ya’ll stick around for the ride.

A  Moment of Gratitude

Although this year wasn’t as expected, one of my greatest accomplishments to date was developed. For that, I’ll always be thankful - For DreamofBee, and all of you who have literally supported me since Day 1. As my readers, you guys check the site every Thursday and you have NO idea how grateful I am for it all – I cry all the time, you’ve helped give me my purpose. Through this platform, I found my voice and a reason to use it. Because of DreamofBee, I’ve gotten opportunities that have allowed me to grow and dream and I dared to create plans that were nowhere near my radar. I can’t thank ya’ll enough for giving me the opportunity and reason to do so. I can’t wait to see what this beautiful labor of love becomes. Don’t sleep on me, I’ve got biiiig plans.

XoXo,

Bee